September 22, 2013


i saw this quote on pinterest about a week ago and it really hit home.
our life for the last month + a half has been more crazy than
anything i could ever imagine.
and i'm not talking about just the bed bugs (which is, thankfully, behind us)

i'm not sure that i'm ready to get to specifics with the blogging world,
but i guess i never thought things like this would ever happen to me.

not that i'm an exception, it's just that you always hear about
people going through challenges and trials that has effected
them their whole life, and that's not really something i've ever
been able to relate to. now i'm not saying my life has been cushy by any means,
i've just never had to go through something so hard that it seems unbearable.
until now.
until this moment, when the unthinkable is actually happening.
to me.

now i'm not asking for a pity party, i really just need to get it out of my brain.
someday in the future, i'll fill you guys in.
but all i can do right now is take it day by day.

"and with that she realized the only control
she had was how she chose to handle them"

i know this post doesn't make a lot of sense, since you guys
probably have no idea what i'm even talking about
(well, maybe some of you do..)
i guess what i'm trying to say is i am working on figuring out
what works best for me when times are hard.
when life throws things at you that you aren't prepared for,
and how we choose to react to it is so important.
so yes, this is a cry for help, of sorts.
how can i channel those feelings of anger, sadness, frustration
and confusion into something positive?

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  1. I really love this quote Ashley! Although I don't know your situation I feel as if I can relate. I recently had a few things come up in my life that I could never have expected. It was hard for me to except them and not let the negative feelings overcome the rest of my life. As I read you question about turning negative, painful feelings into positive ones I thought of a quote by Dieter F. Uchtdor, "God's light is real, it is available to all.
    It has the power to soften the sting of the deepest wound." I have personally found that through the light of the gospel and Christ I have been able to turn my negative feelings into positive uplifting ones. I'm not sure if any of this applies, but I do hope the best for you.
    Xo Morgan

    1. morgan you are just lovely! thank you so much!

  2. Pity Party's are COMPLETELY acceptable, Ash! I love that quote above. It is so true. I recently made a post about how it's always something. And that I currently posses a trial that I never EVER thought I would have to go through. Lo and behold, I did. But I made it! And you will too. Hopefully life is settling down just a little bit. If so, let's do something. Are you going to be at the awful waffle meetup thinger tomorrow? I really hope so!

    1. i looooove you girl! it was so fabulous to see you on tuesday! let's make it a monthly tradition, even if it's just me + you! thank you for supporting my pity party ;)

  3. Go forward with faith. You might find some help, hope and healing through the workbook that can be found here: It has been a miracle in my own life as I have been dealing with my own challenges. Don't give up hope, there is a plan in this, even though we don't know what that is yet. We love you and pray for you daily.

    1. thank you mom! there's always a plan-i just wish i knew what it was! love you!

  4. One more thought: "Go about doing good".

  5. sometimes life just sucks. I had to learn that. BUT, among the crappy times there are many camouflaged blessings and amazing experiences, you just have to be open to recognizing them. But you should give yourself a pity party every now and then, it helps!

    1. thanks sarah! you're the best. thanks for always being there to give advice and lend a listening ear-miss seeing you and your family!

  6. wow. i really appreciate how raw this post is. and i can relate. there was a time i had a very bad break-up - the worst kind - and i became depressed. nothing heavy had ever happened to me before, and it was a hard time. when i finally opened up to my mom, she told me to write down one thing i'm grateful for every day, and pray. just pray. it really, really helped. hope everything turns out okay for you!